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nissaayen So i guess x's get their own blog? Idk. I dreamed about fenrys and now I've got him on the brain. Unlike the marine i don't still love him which helps.. like a lot.
Fenrys is short for Fenrir the wolf who would swallow the sun at the end of days. I met him online around 13-14 and fell in love nearly immediately the way teenager girls do. Fenrys was beautiful, broody, and just a little dangerous. I met him in person when i was 21 and that little slice of time was like out id a fairy tale. Wonderful and perfect.
He came to visit me for 2 weeks when i was a senior in college. We mostly got wasted and watched either dark angel or berserk.
We were poison to each other. We loved each other so much in that young love kinda way. Too much even. He was terrible for my mental health, couldnt deal with all the crazy, he wouldn't say he was my boyfriend but he didnt want me to be with anyone else. He would drive me to distraction with his suicidal threats and then not call for days. He would "test" my love all the time and ofc i would be found wanting.
Really cant speak on his side but i know i was just as bad if not worse.
He joined the marines as well just before i was raped. I wrote him a long time but after i graduated i outright begged him to marry me and he said no... so i married somebody else.
It's been a long time since we talked because one of us had to decide to quit drinking poison and it was me.
I wish him well though maybe with somebody who doesn't drive him over the edge.
Fenrys is short for Fenrir the wolf who would swallow the sun at the end of days. I met him online around 13-14 and fell in love nearly immediately the way teenager girls do. Fenrys was beautiful, broody, and just a little dangerous. I met him in person when i was 21 and that little slice of time was like out id a fairy tale. Wonderful and perfect.
He came to visit me for 2 weeks when i was a senior in college. We mostly got wasted and watched either dark angel or berserk.
We were poison to each other. We loved each other so much in that young love kinda way. Too much even. He was terrible for my mental health, couldnt deal with all the crazy, he wouldn't say he was my boyfriend but he didnt want me to be with anyone else. He would drive me to distraction with his suicidal threats and then not call for days. He would "test" my love all the time and ofc i would be found wanting.
Really cant speak on his side but i know i was just as bad if not worse.
He joined the marines as well just before i was raped. I wrote him a long time but after i graduated i outright begged him to marry me and he said no... so i married somebody else.
It's been a long time since we talked because one of us had to decide to quit drinking poison and it was me.
I wish him well though maybe with somebody who doesn't drive him over the edge.
