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Wow. I started this about 2 hours ago and got overwhelmed by all the people I'd like to explain, define, and categorize. Life doesn't really work that way. So my plan is to add people to this post as I mention them.
 
Honey is my would be ex-girlfriend. That is we flirted with a relationship but it never came to fruition because our mental illnesses clash in a way that makes us both sick in the worst ways. She is the mother of my daughter and middle child. She  was a primary and a secondary for my sadist at points in the last few years. Their status is currently unknown as it is being defined presently. She is bipolar and borderline  which i only mention because it is how she defines herself. We met June  2014.

My sadist is my primary relationship. We met in 2001 and we started seeing each other in 2010.  He is the father of my daughter and my youngest son. Our bdsm relationship is on hold currently because the breakup of our poly family has put an extraordinary amount of stress on our personal relationship and we need to do a significant amount of rebuilding. I love him and we plan to be together for the rest of our life. He has many chronic health issues. 

The Roman is my secondary partner though i hate hate hate the tital of secondary because it seems to imply that the feelings arent as important when really it means i dont have as many resources for him as i would like. He lives in Kentucky. Ive known him since 1996 though we only started pursuing a relationship October 2015.  He's nearly always been there for me. We also have a bdsm relationship but it's more of a switching kind of relationship.

The nemesis is a lot of things and as the name suggests not many of them good.  He's kinda like the bad guy in Jessica Jones without the superpowers. He was a witch... a damn good one. We were poly only not really. I met him in 2002 and i was seeing him full time for 2 years and off and on until 2005. He was abusive as fuck and bdsm. He broke my brain and when he left me i had no idea how i would live without him.  I still follow thought paths he put in there from time to time. When he's with me i can't think, i cant get angry, i cant say no.  He made finding healthy a super big problem. Delusions i have associated with him include him being the reincarnation of Alistor Crowley and a repeated pattern on the wheel of him trying to steal my soul.

The dream doctor.... ive known the dream doctor since 1999 when we worked together at mcdonalds. Sometimes we are best friends, sometimes we've been lovers, other times we've just kinda been nearby. We are done with all the labels but friend now though.


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